Sometimes i think I'm stupid, or im just being blinded by my feelings for him. This is because he was verbally, emotionally and physically abusive. When I arrived here, he was always drinking, and the worst thing is he would physically and mentally hurt me, and in the morning he would say he didn't do it, that I just made a story about it, seems like he doesnt know what he's doing when he's drinking. This thing happens to me again and again but he would say that when he's going back to work after we got married he wont drink anymore since he's job is driving. So everytime he's drunk and go crazy and when he apologize and say he wont do it anymore I give him chances, I told myself he wont do it anymore when he's working. Another thing happen is on our wedding day, after we got married he had shots and drinks and he went crazy for no reason... we had a fight at walmart parking area and a cop ask me what happe, I WISH I TOLD THEM THE TRUTH, but I didnt, I cover for him and the same things happen again....over and over again..... I go with him driving around the country delivering things for fed-ex until one day I can't take it anymore.... we were in oklahoma that time when he was drunk and I left him when he kick me on my arm. I Left him on June, now I dont know what to do with my papers, we havent finish processing coz I left and I will never come back to him. Its not the life I want, I dont wanna be a battered wife. I wanted to send the form to the immigration as battered wife, but I dont know if the emails he sent would be enough evidences? I dont work, I dont have money for lawyer either. Does anyone here knows what should I do? Please help me. Maybe It's better for me to go home? But I wanna fight for my right, he doesn't deserve to be happy. I dont know, I really dont know whats the best thing for me to do???????????
Thanks everyone for hearing me. God bless
Edited by ruth_dee, 04 December 2010 - 07:40 AM.